In celebratory mode, we decided to host Christmas this year and combine the families to meet...dumb, dumb dumb idea. That will be a story for another day!

Emotionally speaking , I've been up and down. Was struggling for a long time (still am) with severe anger and bitterness issues which I've finally just started being able to come out of. For the past I think almost eight months I've pretty much severed every tie in my life, just to sit and sulk and spend money to decorate our place because that's all I've had energy for. But, as spring is coming, I've picked up my running shoes and have been getting back on track with where I left my life off at. It's not easy having the "Fuck you, I'm going to slap a bitch." attitude. 

In less than two weeks I will be running another half marathon....the longest I've run in well eight months was a little over four miles which was yesterday and well....that was the first time, again, in months I've actually run (not counting the one or two miles here and there), period. Either way, I will still run the full 13.1 miles and I'm hoping within those painful moments I will find everything I needed and was looking for inside myself and find the strength to power on!

In lieu of recent events in the world. Yesterday on my run, I happened to pass by an armored car, just one, thought nothing of it. Then as I was turning around the corner I saw another with an unmarked car behind it, with this beefy macho I-could-rip-your-face-off-with-my-pinky-toe kinda man dressed in full armored gear standing outside talking on his phone and I ran past going "Oh, crap". Things like this don't happen in our small town, so naturally I was just a little nerved. As I ran past again (I know I couldn't help it) I saw them pull away with all the doors left open....again NERVING!!!! Called my mom's fiance just so he could get the scoop if anything crazy was going on. Turns out twenty plus minutes down the road they found a family of four dead from carbon monoxide poisoning. Ugh. 

During my run and well since Boston happened, it has been one of the major things on my mind...maybe I shouldn't let it bother me as much as it does, but I can't help it. I'm sensitive, a sap, whatever you would like to call it, that's what I am. So, as I was running yesterday I passed by the garbage men and was so deep in thought I completely ignored that their recycling section had exploded all over the rode and traffic was lining up, someone stopped to help them and I was so lost I just kept running by. Then  *emotional smack to the face*, turned my little running butt behind and went to help. Normally something I would do without even thinking, just slipped by and I was amazed at how piss poor my attitude has been. Getting back to "me" is such a long road, but hey who else is going to do it? 

So, what's going on in your lives, guys? I don't have the internet so don't be miffed if I don't reply or go to your pages right away! Hope all is well!

Nicole