It was an up and down kind of week.

Another one of my past co-workers passed away this week. The third one in only two months--she was only 23 and committed suicide. Found out as well, another has breast cancer...It really just...I just don't have the words anymore. I'm starting to think that store has a curse...

Received my externship sites this week. One I am really looking forward to, the other...it seems I might have to change. It looked like a great opportunity to get back into the large animal world but, they were rather misleading with their information.

Also, just got back from a backpacking trip with the gang and lookie at what flew right in front of our site...



It was a perfect moment...all six of us just stood speechless...I've never seen one in the wilderness, let alone that close. The trip in and of itself was awesome. I'm thankful for those moments because it is the only time I feel perfectly still and that my world is at peace. I wish everyone were able to have those experiences, but I know a lot don't.

Back to the study grind, hope everyone has an enjoyable weekend.

Best friends come around once in a lifetime. They are the person you are able to call no matter the time of day, what mood you are in, they take the heat and beatings from you and for you....they can reciprocate said abuse, you can fight and a moment later it's like nothing ever happened.


I had a best friend once. Intellectually speaking, we were inseparable, but we had issues. Our friendship tapered on and off for years, we needed each other through such difficult, unsure moments of our lives. But, there came to a point the damage was beyond repair. And, bitterly I just had enough with the nonsense and just said "See ya later!".

There are days I regret this decision and there are months I think nothing of it. I notice more often it is the days I need that conversation, that understanding. Pah! It came as such a shock to me thinking that I... needed someone? That is a foreign idea! What a weak person I thought I was for "needing" someone. But, in the past year I've realized, I wasn't weak, I was human and having a bond (odd as it was) with someone was okay. I've always found it difficult to have friendship. I'm typically a one person kinda woman one person equaling...me. I always thought it was best to be independent. To have a strong will to make it on my own and not have to rely on anyone. That's great for a while, but as I'm evolving I need love in my life and I need friends in my life or at least companionship.


I've moved around a lot therefore making *cue music* everlasting friendships very difficult to have or find for that matter. I found that people came and went as you needed them in your life and as their influence in your life came to an end so did that friendship. But, every independent needs a dependent. We can't always do everything alone and gosh, it's hard as hell to break new sidekick(s) in.